Insecurity and pride seem to be two sides of the same coin, and I think a lot of insecurity stems from inner voices of criticism, or maybe more adequality put, inner voices of accusation.
One of the greatest hindrances for me when it comes to writing about Christian topics as I see them has been dealing with inner voices of accusation. I love and appreciate genuine criticism. We are supposed to hold each other accountable for what we do in the name of Jesus. Accusations are another thing.
I can hardly make a post without some voice of accusation creeping into my mind, and I realized today that these voices of accusation come from people I know. I know I’m not alone in this. Many of us have dealt with very accusatory people.
Recognizing these voices of accusation is useful. For one, I know that to defer to these voices is pride. It is pride because I worry about what other people will say instead of what the Lord has to say. Why should I be insecure or afraid? I know me. Jesus knows me. He knows me better than I do. If I love Him and trust in Him, why do I allow my accusers to cause fear to well up in my heart?
Recognizing this also makes me realize why there are so few people I am close to. There’s something about me that brings certain personality traits to light, and I don’t know what it is. However, I think that those who serve as voices of The Accuser should continue to remain at a safe distance.
Jesus does not accuse. The Holy Spirit does not accuse. There is a difference between conviction of sin of a truth and assumptions, accusations, and slander. I also know that many will do you wrong, then instead of admitting to it, they will convince themselves that you are the wrong doer, and even go so far as to accuse you of the very thing they do.
Most importantly, I want to make sure that I do not serve as the inner voice of accusation for anyone in my life. Including my readers. There’s so much of this today. If we struggle with jumping to conclusions and making false accusations, we need to look at ourselves. Where does this insecurity come from? What inner voices of accusation do we carry that accuse ourselves or others?
Squash that insecurity and pride. Jesus’s love is enough, and His grace is humbling when we really think about all that He has done for us that we do not deserve. There is no room for insecurity nor pride in the Kingdom of Heaven. These are corrupting forces, and as it is written, “There shall not enter in anything that defiles or makes a lie.”
I won’t accuse myself for keeping distance from my accusers or those who accuse those I love. There is much that goes along with this, and it’s more than I can unravel at the moment. There is so much accusation among believers. It should not be so.