In my last testimony article, I wrote about the point in time when Jesus began to take over my life in a meaningful way. I prayed and He answered in a way that I did not expect.
One of the main reasons why I prayed to Jesus that night was because I needed answers. I was very confused.
I was confused by all the different ideas about Jesus and the various Christian denominations. Which one was right? I was confused by some New Age notions, and I began to think that all paths to God were acceptable, and Jesus was one of many—but I wondered if that was true.
I was confused by my life. I did not know how to go on. I was dealing with personal matters that felt entirely hopeless, and I had fallen into a severe state of depression.
I will never forget the night that I called out to Him, and one thing that stands out most in my memory is this part of my prayer: “show me what is true, even if I don’t like it.”
Jesus began leading me towards truth, starting with a series of Online bible studies that helped me to understand basic Christian doctrines and what it means to live a Christian life. These studies provided a kind of foundation that would remain steady throughout all the hard times that the Lord would bring me through in upcoming years.
He would indeed show me much truth…and I would not always like it.
I prayed that prayer in the late summer of 2014, and a lot has happened since that time. I will write something about this experience every Tuesday so long as I am able.
For now, I want to say that the truth is simple, but finding the truth is not always so simple, neither is it simple to wield the truth appropriately.
We have to go through painful experiences that reshape the way we look at things. We have to be willing to step out of our comfort zone and deal with our biases. We have to learn to be moveable when necessary and firm at the same time, so that we are teachable yet not tossed around with the trends of the time. We have to learn to listen to the Spirit, because the truth can seem to contradict itself; it doesn’t, but our perspective needs to come in line with Christ.
Most importantly, we need to be honest about ourselves, both to ourselves and to Jesus. We need to see our sinful state so that we can repent and understand our dependance on Jesus for all things. He is the truth, and He has so much to share with us, but first our hearts must be prepared to receive Him.
I know that when I called out to Him, my heart was not full. My life was in chaos and distress, so much so that I did not feel like a real person. I felt like a void with a human shape, if that makes any sense at all. I believe that Jesus allowed me to get to that point so that He could begin filling me and refining me for His purposes.
I believe that Jesus will bring many more people to that same point of emptiness because we have not loved the truth but rejected it. We have rejected Him. However, I take comfort in knowing that all things are for our good if we trust in Him.
If you read these articles, you will hear this a lot in closing:
In all things, keep moving forward and trust in Jesus. ❤
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